23 Sep 2016
I’m good at stressing myself out.
I live in the future.
In the world of endless possibilities.
I have a lot of desires:
- Power, Skill, Ability
- Following God
- Marriage and sex
- To build strong intimate relationships with people
- To get married, have become such close friends with another couple that we’re like the fantastic four, or the avengers! Super powered people pursuing awesome things for the betterment of mind-kind!
- New things
- Mastery – achieving a “State of Flow” with things
- Advancing myself
- Building myself
I pursue these desires. I want them, I work on them.
But they can stress me out.
Everyday I’m learning that I need to let go of my desires. And let God handle them.
Everyday I’m saying “God, I want these things, I would love to have them, but ultimately whatever you want of me, I’d rather have that.”
Here’s the big thought from my prayer time today:
“I will pursue what I pursue, change that whenever you like. I will make my plans, but I hold them to you with an open hand. I ask that you bless them, but if it’s your will that they crash and burn, then let them crash and burn.”
That last line really spoke to me, “Then let them crash and burn.” I’m fine even if I fail miserably and…crash and burn.
…I do so love watching things crash and burn.
There’s growth in the failure, there’s growth in the success.
I’m fine with wherever the Lord takes me =)
Ultimately it’s eternity that matters:
“Do not lay up for yourself treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieve break in an steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven. Where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”
That’s where the peace lies. =)